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[Saturday October 15th, 2005 11am] [ mood | thankful ] Sorry, I know its been a while... lol .-*RANDOMS*-. *--Not a whole lot has been going on... School and work!  And yes, Calculus and Ms. Davis both still suck, although things have gotten significantly better in Ms. Davis's class (I think)!  That classs cracks me up, its like a soap opera in their!  Jeremy got a new truck and a job! I am so proud of him! *--Whitt is WV and Jeremy is at work! Guess I have the day to myself (until time to go to work)! *--Went to Jeremy's homecoming last night, they lost, but oh well... We couldn't got to the dance because he had to be at work at 6:30 this morning, that really sucked, especiall since it was hi last football homecoming! *--Thinking about homecoming, I forgot to inform you all that I was Michael Jackson leading a pack of Zombie dancersfor the elevent grade float, we won! It was the single most embarassing moment of my life (needless to say)! *--I am going to visit Megan in a few weeks! *--Seriously contemplating quitting work! Its just so much stress, and it takes up so much time that could be used to more important things! *--I have sooo much to do! *--I wish Jeremy wasn't so anit-social, I really hate that! It makes life sooo boring! *--I love that fall is finally here! But ne ways, I better get off here! TTYL* Sarah B*  {2} {comment.}

[Monday August 8th, 2005 11pm] [ mood | geeky ] *Randoms* -Well, where do I start? Much to my dismay this summer has flown by! My schedule for school is as follows: Cal 1 (at the college) - Mr. Algyer AP Language Comp 11- Ms. Davis US History Pt. 1- Mr. Sharpe Chemistry Pt. 1- Mr. Stanley The last two may be out of order, but oh well, you get the jist! -Jeremy's parents are like really really tripping out over his senior pictures! I will be so glad when he gets them taken tomorrow, just so that I won't have to listen to them fighting over it anymore. I meany really, who would have thought that two people could find so many things to stress over about a picture? -This weekend Jeremy and I are going to Gatlinburg to meet my cousins fiancé; we are leaving after his scrimmage.  Hopefully, we will get to go shopping!  -I had a very interesting week, those of you closest to me know what I am talking about! No summer would be complete without that happening at least once! -I have no idea how I am going to handle work and school! -I heard the absolutely funniest  (naturall, no one else found it slightly amusing, but I laughed til I nearly died) thing this evening: *This morning I found myself staring at a bottle of orange juice because it said concentrate* -The Dukes of Hazard was a hilarious movie; I loved it!  Well, I guess thats all for now! *Sarah  {2} {comment.}

[Tuesday July 12th, 2005 1am] [ mood | naughty ] Hey guys, Well, yes, I am updating once again... I know--- I have no life... lol... This summer has flown by, and that scares me.... Soon school will be starting back.... The thought of being a junior absolutely terrifies me... I get over anxious when I think about it... I think about all of the things that could go wrong in my life... I mean I have it all so carefully planned out in my head, I know what I want to do, I just pray that I can... I realized that being as stubborn as I am is a very bad thing... Not just to those around you, but to myself too... I could have my car back if I would just accept it... But I already said I didn't want it, especially if it was going to be thrown up to me all of the time... But I really do need a car so I can have my own life, I would be able to do so many more things... There are so many things I would like to change about myself, it makes me sick to think about it all... It just never seems to work; it seems there is never time or I don't have the things access to the things I need! It is really quiet frustrating, and the fact that everything costs so much blinging money doesn't help things one bit!  Well, I still haven't had the oppurtunity to talk to my aunt or friend that I have been wanting to, so chances are that I won't be able to do anything else this summer... But thats okay I guess... I don't know what I am going to do about working during the school year, I would like to, but I would also like to be off every Friday night, which I know isn't going to happen! I just want to be able to see Jeremy's games... That means alot more to me than that job... I was looking at some old pictures earlier today that really made realize how much I miss playing basketball and softball...     But thats all thats on my mind right now... So I guess I will talk to yall later! ..-*Sarah*-..                                                                                               I love you baby!                                                                                                     o3/o8/o4   {1} {comment.}

[Sunday July 10th, 2005 5pm] Well, as you can see, it has been a while since I updated! Not much has been going on in my life aside from work! I am trying to get thingd settled in my life, as of right now, I am staying with my mother. None of my stuff is unpacked though, it is all just kind of lying around! My summer has really sucked thus far, it kind of makes me excited for school to start back! I really need to get in touch with a lot of people that I haven't seen or talked to in a while. But anyways, there's quiet a bit I need to go do! Does anyone know when school starts back??? *-SB {2} {comment.}

I NEED SLEEP!!! [Wednesday June 29th, 2005 3am] [ mood | exhausted ] [ music | Dont cha- Pussycat Dolls ] Well, I know its been a while, but SOOOO much has been going on lately!! *-- I know you all have heard too much about this governors school crap, but it is really pushing me to the extreme these last couple of days! I haven't slept in almost three  nights! All I have done is work on this malarky...Is that even a real word???...anyways I think I may FINALLY have gotten it all finished!! I just pray that Jeremy got  his half done and done right!!! If he didn't, well, I in for at least two more sleepless nights and a whole lot of trouble! *--I have closed everynight at work for the past eight nights in a row; that has been a hell in itself making the governor's school stuff that much worse! I finally get a day off Wednesday; I was also scheduled (might I say miracuously) to be off Friday night too, but Michelle talked me in to working for her because she and Jason are trying to get outta town to celebrate their four-year wedding anniversary.  So who knows when my next day off will be; however, hopefully I will be able to work a few day shifts once governors school is over! *--Well, now for the biggie! I moved out of my dads house! I have know idea where I am going to stay!?!? Grandmother and mom are the only two options I have and mom doesn't have a job, which makes me lean toward mamaw, but she and papaw already raised their children and she is having enough trouble trying to take care of him so I have no clue?? Comment if you have a suggestion! *--Hopefully, I am going to take another brief vacation with my aunt towards the end of July! I don't know if Jeremy will get to go, but I am thinking yes, and if he can't then oh well! I would really like to be able to take a break! It would be so nice just not having to go to work for a week! *--Oh and yes, along with the whole moving out deal I gave my father the keys to my car and told him to shove it up his ass! So, it really sucks not having a car and driving anymore, but its the moral of it ya know? I really don't want anything he gave me! Well, since governors school is slowly drawing to a close, I am sure things will get a lot better everywhere in my life! But for now, I am going to go see if I finally can't catch a couple hours z's! Got be in BSG by nine in the morning! Later* Sarah B. ..-*I love you... forever and always*-.. {2} {comment.}

[Tuesday June 21st, 2005 11pm] [ mood | relaxed ] [ music | Broken Road- Rascal Flats ] Hey... Yeah I know I just updated earlier, but I cant bring myself to work on this stuff any longer! I just needed a lil' break... lol... Things are going really well for me... lol... All except this governor's school stuff... I am so sure that Jeremy is really regretting doing this with me! I honestly can't wait to get back to work... Luckily I work  evening shift for a while, I am excited about that even though I really do hate closing... But oh well! I am getting really worried about my grandfather... It's almost like he is not even the same person anymore... It really makes me appreciate life more! Today as just been so great! I am in such a wonderful mood! TTYL*SB ILY* Muah! {4} {comment.}

[Tuesday June 21st, 2005 6pm] [ mood | silly ] Hey Guys! This is a quick random update: *- We got back from Florida last night at like 3:00 am! We had so much fun! Actually it would have sucked without Jeremy! I am so glad he went with me!! *- I am soo stressed over Governor's School, I am really far behind where I had to miss so many days! *- I called into work for the first time today; hope I didn't piss them off, but I have wayy to much to do! *- My car is a p.o.s!! It is broken down again... lol But ne ways... TTYL* ~Sarah I love you! 03/08/04 {comment.}

[Wednesday June 15th, 2005 12am] [ mood | calm ] Yeah, I know I am becoming an update aholic, but sadly I really don't have anything else to do... Governor's School was pretty blingin hard today!  But I got through it rather well... Now, the tough part will be seeing if I can make it through the four days I will miss... Jeremy transfered into my class today! Yay! Ms. Lane (AKA: Terri and the "Gooch") gave Jeremy and I all the software to take home... So I am going to go to governor's school for like an hour tomorrow and Thursday and then head straight to work... I have a feeling its going to suck! But anyways... We leave for Florida Thursday; hopefully, it will be a better trip this year than it was last year!  I still haven't decided where to take my dual enrollment!! I guess I need to take care of that pretty soon!  I really love storms; tonight Jeremy and I were out running a few errands and it was lightening like crazy (I guess you all saw it)... It was awesome... But anyways, I am really tired and I have an early and very busy day tomorrow, so I am going to head to bed! Goodnight* Sarah B.~   {2} {comment.}

[Monday June 13th, 2005 6pm] [ mood | discontent ] Hey guys! Well today I went to MECC's Governor's School... It was so boring... lol... Work is absolutely driving me CRAZY!! It's like I can't even have a normal life anymore... However, I am leaving Thursday for Florida... I really want to take a trip with just some friends, or with Jeremy... lol... When my dad and his girlfriend, they make me miserable... lol... But oh well... Tommorow is Whitt's birthday, I am going to try to get her to do something Wednesday... I really can't wait to get a way from here for a lil while... Yesterday we did a Father's Day thing since we will all be gone this Sunady... Well I hope you all have had a better summer than mine, I haven't even gotten to go swimming once! But I guess thats life! I am just so frazzin bored! Sorry, I know th is update was like real random, not that any of you all actually read it or care... lol... TTYL* *--Sarah -Where's that update Kristina?? lol -BTW the whole purpose of this entry was to credit   folksong  for my icon... {2} {comment.}

[Sunday June 12th, 2005 10am] Uh-oh! Looks like Nikki tagged me! 1.) When You Come Back To Me- Garth Brroks 2,)Dont Cha- Pussycat Dools 3.) Just a Lil Bit- Fifty Cent 4.) Pour Some Sugar on Me- Def Lepord 5.) Take it Easy- Eagles Now I tag: alliecat_09 blonde_ro0ts kbo_jib  stacie_s kristina_jib08 {comment.}

[Thursday June 9th, 2005 12am] [ mood | loved ] Well, I just thought I would update real quick... Not much has happened lately. just hanging out with my baby and working... I swear I love him more every day that I am with him... He just makes my life complete! I spent the night and most of the dat with mom... I have missed her and John Henry so much since I have been living with dad... We leave for Florida next week to see Heather's wedding, but it is only for a weekend because dad has to work... So I am really not looking forward to that! Sandra apparently worked on the pool a little while today; I didn't think we were going to bother with it this year, but apparently they changed their minds! I am going to try to go to see Megan soon... But anyways... I have a done to do tomorrow, so I better get off here! Sorry for the total randomness of this update... Goodnight* SB*     {comment.}

[Wednesday June 1st, 2005 12am] [ mood | moody ] Hey, Well, I know it is late, but I just can't sleep... There are so many things going through my head; I can't make sense of it all... Somethings just bother me I can't help it, some peolple, some things that happened in my life, some things that happened in other people's lives... They just bother me whenever I think about them its kind of like I just feel screaming "Why?" to the top of my lungs! I know life goes on, but there are just those wierd little things that I can't seem to move past and I don't understand why... Sometimes I just sit and wonder if I have/ am making the right decisions for me... I don't want to be eighty and regretful of the life I didn't live... I know I am freaking out over the most stupid things... lol... I don't know why I over stress everything, its like my heart always tells me I am doing the right thing, but a tiny voice from the back of my head pops up saying, "Are you sure?"  Maybe I have listened to my family telling me to try knew things and explore way too much... I mean if some one says something to you enough times sure its going to linger their for you to dwell upon, right? I just wish they would stay out of it and let me make my own decisions and be happy with them...  If everything could just click for me it would be, well, a miracle! I really need this vacation coming up, I just need a few days to be me! Sorry about this entry guys, I know it was weird and went way over board on the rants, but you'll live, I promise! Goodnight* Sarah ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Baby, I just wanted you to know that you are one of the m ost imporatant things in my life and every night I thank god for you and all that you do, without you I truly don't know where I would be. You saved me from myself and that means more than you will ever know! I know it has been hard, for both us, and I am very aware that I have made my mistakes, but I promise together we will make this last. I promise you that. I will never make you doubt me again. I love you with everything I have and so much more! I love you! 03/08/04 {comment.}

[Sunday May 29th, 2005 4pm] [ mood | determined ] Hey guys. I know... lol... I am becoming an update addict! But I am just so bored, since the end of school is drawing nearer and teachers no longer fill like doing anything, I have been so bored!  Well, I just realized about an hour ago that I have to take the SAT Saturday... I am so nervous... lol... Hopefully within the next couple of weeks I will add a picture page... Hopefully, this will be a big summer for me... There are so many things I hope to accomplish! I really hope I can do them all... I really don't want to take exams, they stress me out so much! School is so weird with out the seniors... Especially Anatomy, since practically everyone in their was a senior... I am kind of looking forward to next year, I signed up for US History, Calculus, Chemistry, AP English 11... It will be hard, but hopefully I will enjoy it... I am really torn between taking Calcullus AP or Dual enrollment though... I still have not found a job; I have put in a few applications, so hopefully I will here back soon! My family has deserted me once again, but oh well! Well, I guess I will get off here and get on with my day! Love ya* Sarah Elizabeth-Madge Bledsoe 03/08/04 {comment.}

[Saturday May 28th, 2005 9pm] [ mood | ecstatic ] [ music | You had me from Hello- Kenney Chesney ] Hey, Well, I was just doing something for Whitt on here, and I decided to update real quick... Well, I went to West Virginia for Decoration Day (we always go up there and decorate the graves and have dinner with a bunch of family that after sixteen years of going up there, I still don't know half their names)... Jeremy didn't get to go, he had to work, but when I got home he had made me my favorite meal (fettucine alfredo)... It was so sweet, it was even complete with candles and flowers.... lol... It was cheasy but so sweet! I love him so much! Its so weird how much I miss him when we are apart... But I am going to get off here and take him to Coeburn... lol... TTYL* Sarah~ {comment.}

[Wednesday May 25th, 2005 11pm] [ mood | discontent ] Hey, I wanted to give a special thanks to oh_no_bad_touch for creating my lay out... I would also like to thank Allie for teaching me how to do it... Thanks to everyone helped! Goodnight* SB* {comment.}

Life is way too confusing! [Tuesday May 17th, 2005 10pm] [ mood | distressed ] Hey, Just thought I'd update real quick... This week has been pretty ordinary, I won some state writng thing, but thats about it... Well, actually a lot has happened, but very little I am willing to put on here... Whitt, I just want you to know that I will always be here for you; I am sorry things never seem to work out for you!  Isn't it strange how certain people will always manage to be a part of you; no matter how things turn out.... I hope they realize that no matter if they are no longer an active part of my life, they will always be with me... I hate that things have to work the way do; that we have to make decisions like we do... It's really not fair to anyone... And I hope they realize its the hardest thing I will ever or have ever done.... I really hope I didn't make the wrong decision.... Well, congrats to Nikki on the pageant! I am so sorry I couldn't be there!  But anyways, I am gonna get off here! TTYL* SB* {2} {comment.}

[Thursday April 21st, 2005 11pm] [ mood | contemplative ] [ music | Garth Brooks ] Hey guys... I just thought I'd update real quick... Tonight, I have been thinking a lot about some strange things... I really have a strange life... lol... I have been thinking a lot about the past year, there are so many things that have changed over the past year, I miss a lot of them, and some times I wander if I have chosen the right path for myself or simply the safe one... I wish that I didn't feel forced to make a decision regarding the rest of my life, I am sixteen years old, and I don't think people should expect that of me right now... It doesn't seem right, and I don't want to live the rest of my life regretting these descions... I just feel like I need to be able to make up my own mind, but how can I without hurting them, or worse loosing them?   Oh my, life is really and truly quiet a mess... I never know what to expect... The past few days have been eventful (most of you all know what I am talking about)... I know that I am rambling on about some really silly things, and I am sorry... I just need to get some things straight in my head... Goodnight* ~SB~ {1} {comment.}

[Sunday April 17th, 2005 1pm] Hey... Just figured I'd update, it has been a pretty decent weekend... I got my license Wednesday, but I haven't really driven... I only had to work one night, which sucks because that means no money, but oh well.... This week has been rough, I have been so blinging tired!  Mamaw took me shopping this weekend, I didn't really buy anything I liked... But oh well, I never do!  Friday and Saturday night Jeremy and I tagged along with Whitney, Justin, and Caitlin, which was pretty interesting... lol I have so much to do oday it in't even funny... So, I guess I am gonna get off here and start on some of it... lol... TTYL* Love ya* SB* {comment.}

[Thursday March 31st, 2005 11pm] [ mood | grateful ] [ music | "Please Remember Me" Tim McGraw ] Hey yall.... I was just sitting here bored, talking to Jeremy and decided to update real quick... So, its Spring break and I am really enjoying it... Unfortunately, its almost over; that doesnt even seem right... lol... This past week has been extremely rough (those of u closest to me know what I am talking about)... Of course there are a lot of thughts and feelings I have that I am not abut to say aloud to ne one though... lol... Sorry! I really dont think its possible for ne one else to understand it, cause I really don't understand it myself... But, in the end I guess it all turned out for the better... Unless of course a nameless prson reutrns to town, but I seriously doubt that will happen.. I am really blessed to have such a wonderful boyfriend, he really must love me to put  up with me... lol So for some really weird reason, I suddenly got the urge to go to a rodeo... lmao! So, I spent the night with Whitt Tuesday night and she stayed with me last night... We were very well behaved... lol... We really didnt do ne thing except be super board... Mamaw and Papaw came over for luch today, it was her birthday... Papaw was doiong so much better, I was so excited... Welp, thats about all I can think of for now... lol... TTYL* Sarah* Baby... I love you more than anything in the world, despite whatever others may think or say... And yeah, over the past year, I have made some mistakes, nothing has changed... lol... I cant believe how lucky I am to have some on as caring as you in my lif, God only knows how you found the strength to keep loving me and forgive me... I love you with everything I have... You mean the world and so much more to me... I love you* {1} {comment.}

[Wednesday March 16th, 2005 6pm] [ music | "When you come back to me" Garth Brooks ] Hey guys, I just thought I'd update since its been for ever since I did so... lol... Well, softball isnt going so great, but who does that surprise? But, that doesn't change the fact that I love it... lol... Things are going good with me and Jeremy; he is working at Food City now... lol... Well, other than I am a little overwhelmed with home work... I have so much to do, especially since I was sick a couple days last week... lol... Well, I finally got a car, a very shitty car, but all the same it will get me from point A to point B... I miss Jeremy so bad when he is at work.... I fopund out today that my aunt wants me to go on a cruise with her the last week in May, I'd have to miss some school, so I dont' know if I can... I really hope I get to! I am worried about being abled to leave Jeremy that long, I am not sure I could take it... lol...  Well, I better go finish up my homework... lol... TTYL* SB {3} {comment.}

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